It has been a long time since I've seen my old friend. We were so close in high school; hanging out all the time and just being goofy with each other. Then when he left for college, it was like one of my best friends left me. It sucked majorly. I never really realized how close we were until he left, and it really hit me. I have a tendency to take A LOT of things for granted. For me, I always think that everything will never really change. Shes only in the hospital for a little while, I'll see her soon; he's only gone for a week or two, he'll come back before I know. No, things don't work out like that at all. It is not a fairy tale book life here in the real world. So with that said, him gone has made me realize I need to live and love before I lose. The good part out of all of this; I am finally going to see him this weekend!
When I see him, I hope it is not weird. I have only seen him a couple of times before, in the past couple months, but never got to actually spend time with him. What if I see him and am like, who are you? Oh my goodness, that would not be good! I know I am getting a little crazy here, but it really is a possibility! I can just picture it, like a movie scene. We spot each other from opposite ends of the room, he comes up and says hi and I have no clue who he is; then when I realize it, the worse happens and I miss my chance and never realize I just saw my best friend. So dramatic! I had to tie in entertainment, since this is so off topic.
Anyways! I'm sure things will be the same. We'll laugh over everything stupid (or he'll just laugh at me, the usual) and just be silly. I got to know him through show choir and stuff, and that is how we became close. Just last night is when I hung out with him and it was perfectly normal; we decided that we needed to keep in touch better so we never lose touch! And that I need to stop taking everything for granted.
I was thinking more about it today, I take my family, my school, my friends for granted. I am so thankful for them all, but at times I forget. A couple of my close friends have been sick with the icky swine flu, and when I wasn't able to see them at school I was like... this sucks! I never realized how dead my life was without them. Along with that, my sister came home this weekend and we had our little catch up chat on boys and our lives, I missed her so much! My dad was jokingly saying how I never call her, only when I need something. I was mad at him because I thought that wasn't true at all, but then I thought about it and it made sense. I am losing touch with her AND my brother, and I have been taking them for granted.
Everyone does this without even knowing, but I am definitely going to try and stop; I am going to lose something forever, and if I take that something for granted, it will equalize to HUGE regret.
I was thinking more about it today, I take my family, my school, my friends for granted. I am so thankful for them all, but at times I forget. A couple of my close friends have been sick with the icky swine flu, and when I wasn't able to see them at school I was like... this sucks! I never realized how dead my life was without them. Along with that, my sister came home this weekend and we had our little catch up chat on boys and our lives, I missed her so much! My dad was jokingly saying how I never call her, only when I need something. I was mad at him because I thought that wasn't true at all, but then I thought about it and it made sense. I am losing touch with her AND my brother, and I have been taking them for granted.
Everyone does this without even knowing, but I am definitely going to try and stop; I am going to lose something forever, and if I take that something for granted, it will equalize to HUGE regret.
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