Almost the end

School is slowly coming to an end. It truly is weird to think about, and I honestly don't know why. I have always been really relaxed through each year I've spent in school. I mean there have been numerous times where I've felt like I was going to kill myself because of that one test or project, but other than that it was all steadily normal if you know what I mean. By the end of each year, I was kind of sad to see it all go. Like, even the classes and schoolwork, because for the majority of the time I had fun with it all. So this year, because things have been so different, I have just been wanting the year to be over so badly and I don't even care.

This year has been extremely hard for an exceeded amount of reasons. One reason is that it has been my first year taking an AP class, and I am taking TWO of them. So that is not a lot and shouldn't be that difficult, but at times it just gets so overwhelming! Basically, I have learned that with these classes, you get homework or work to do and are given a date and then done. You have to plan it out on your own and work on it the best you can, no real motivation in hand. I mean you have to learn to do work without teachers being like, okay come on lets go, lets go! You can do it, come on! It really got to me, just how much I based my work ethics on people motivating me to do things. So yeah, I have been overwhelmed a lot by these classes, but I have learned a lot about myself and how I can work on my own.

Another thing is the extra cirriculars. I have been spending soooo much time with Happiness Inc., speech team, and tennis, practicing, along with my friends, AND especially with a special person. With that special person, some nights I just am lazy and would rather hang out with them or other people instead of doing some homework. It has made me so behind that I don't know what to do with myself. The work just keeps coming and coming that, in the end, I just want it all to stop!

Thats why I really just need this year to end. I have one more year here and I want it to be THE best year ever, but I need to be working hard and balancing my time like I could have done better this year.

The volcanic ash that almost made us miss our plane date and have to wait extra days to go to Ireland. That would have stunk!!