I am content

Last week was our going out concert, and for many, it was very emotional. But honestly, why does it have to be like that? Why does everyone always have to cry? I really have mixed emotions about this because it depends on who the person is that gets all worked up.

So there are the seniors. They have been in showchoir for, what, four years? More? Sometimes less, and it really doesn't matter. Either way, it is their last year of being in such a high honored group, and they have every right to be sad. When this last performance comes, it is the seniors last time to do what they love. To do this one last performance with the people they have come close to. So for those seniors who bawl their eyes out and go insane, I guess they have every right. But when it comes to people like, well me, things are so different.

I am really, well oddly, emotional. There are times where things just really move me, or affect me, and I just break down and cry. But those times come only but rarely; I can honestly say that I am not an emotional person. So when the going out concert came, I thought to myself that I was going to cry. I knew that I would and am really going to miss the seniors that I got close to, and the rough year that we went through, so I truly thought it was all going to be so hard. The concert was over, and even as I hugged those who left tears of mascara on my shoulder, I had no urge to cry whatsoever. I felt so cold-hearted! So out of place! It kind of hurt me that I wasn't really sad about all of this, but then I realized something. You don't have to be so emotional. Why do you? So many of them asked me, "Aren't you going to miss the seniors? How can you not cry?" And I thought about it. Well, you see friends, I am going to miss them all, but that doesn't mean I have to be all emotional to show it. I am who I am.

To answer my question about why everyone has to be so emotional and why do they have to cry... well, it is their way of showing how much it means to them, blah blah. For those who can't cry and be emotional, in times like this, well... I am with ya! We have emotion, just sometimes can't show it in the normal kind of ways.